Oh hey

I forgot this existed...
I don't even know why I suddenly thought to post in this, but here you go.
Maybe I should get back to doing this.

There are no ghosts in this town

So I don't know. I guess, for some stupid reason, it seems logical to blog more often, so I'm going to try to. I mean, I have one, so I might as well.
I'm listening to Future of the Left.
Worrying about stuff. Y'know, the usual.
I only have two more days of drumline. It makes me so happy to know that I don't have to get up early every morning with the intention of marching through the sweltering heat practicing random drills and lessons. However, it at least gave me something to look forward to and to regulate my days by. It almost seems like there's going to be a void for routine in my life for the rest of the summer now.
On another note, I also have only one day left of driving until I officially "graduate" from Drive Tek. Renee and I have our final drive, which I am both excited and worried for. Worried that I might fail or get DOT'd, but excited because I am one step closer to getting my driver's license. Which for me, means freedom in a sense.
But anyway.
Going to have a water fight today, maybe try to hang out with Bunnyman.
Life is good.

Violent Hour

Oh! I forgot to mention my advance "research" for the whole NYC thing. I've been looking through some local New York bands and other smaller acts that play there frequently, and I turned up some amazing bands.

My starter list:
Future of the Left
Parts & Labor
Child Bite
Big Bear
Fiasco
The Clientele
Grand Duchy
Jucifer
Lovvers
Superchunk
Your Vegas
Fan Tan
Kordan

Check 'em out. There's a good chance you'll enjoy them.

Bookshop Casanova

Well, for starters, the Fourth of July was eight days ago, and to celebrate we hosted a family reunion at our house. One of the many guests was my aunt Trudi from New York. She has a nice apartment and is very connected with some people, and she told me that it would be great if I would go up and visit her next summer.
The thing is, she meant the whole summer.
My goal would be to find a paying internship at a music establishment before that time. Hopefully a recording studio or something along those lines, although anything would be appreciated. I would be able to stay with her for that time, and become one with the city. I would be allowed to go to shows and concerts and familiarize myself with the NYC music scene. I would be able to go shopping as well, and meet plenty of new and amazing people.
The thing is, I don't know if I would be ready to leave my friends and family for three months. I mean, it is the perfect opportunity for, well, everything in my life. It would be amazing, and I would have a blast. But I would miss everyone so much!
I guess it's good that I still have a long time to think about it.

On another note, life is amazing.
But that's a story for another day. (:

Wellllll, then...

Drive Tek, drumline... frick. I'm so majorly screwed... P:
Well, Drive Tek will be easy enough... I mean, it's just driving.
But holy crap, drumline was, is, and will be the single most terrifying event of my life.
I have nooo idea what I'm supposed to be doing, seeing as it's kindasorta my first time playing cymbals/mallet keyboardish thing/being in band at all. God, I am so scared for this...

Today...

was absolutely stellar. I mean, it was pretty much the best day I have had in ages.

Aside from the fact that everyone is getting unnecessary and unwanted haircuts... :/
Ah well. It'll grow out soon enough... I hope...
Bah. Fools.

But anyway...

I was in the best of moods. After all, it's not every day that I am capable of feeling confident- like I could rule the world, per say. In fact, it's usually quite the opposite. But on the scarce and few days that I am not having an overload of hatred and self-loathing [emo rant!] are the ones that really stand out in my mind. Plus I got to hang with Chloe after school on Main Street (we got ice cream!), and my drum lessons went really well.
And... dare I say it...?
I might almost be excited for band now. :o
Study hall was so much fun. Basically, some friends and I sat around for close to an hour and talked about the stupidest things. Rumors, tattoos, piercings, boys. It was the greatest! Bahaha j'adore mes amis. :)
Talking to Jessica and Josh during World Studies was pretty entertaining. And then our [insert hilarious short red-faced kid's name here] conversation during lunch? That was the best! XD
I couldn't even find it within myself to have a bad time in the classes that are usually really terrible. Not even the fact that I'm totally going to bomb my huge science test tomorrow phased me.
I finished up cleaning my room tonight. I had to make myself stop after midnight last night. :P
All in all, everything just seemed so... happy... y'know? It was great.

Spring is in the air, my friends. We must learn to correspond our moods with the weather! Make the transition from gloomy and miserable to happy and optimistic. If I can do it, so can you! I can guarantee that it will be well worth your time. :]

Goodbye Blue Sky

As I sit here, the radiant blue of the sky from the first warm day in ages recedes into the distance, tumbling below the horizon. AC/DC's "Hells Bells" blares through the speakers beside me, loud enough to deafen the persons that are unaccustomed to music.


Basically, today was one of the best days I have had in a long time.
I haven't the foggiest idea why, but I was just in the best of moods the entire day.

In World Studies, the teacher gave us a work day, so everyone just sat around talking. We all got into a conversation about Disney and mostly everyone was singing, which reignited the flame that is my love for Disney. Well, at least Hercules and Mulan. :]
Jessica and I made plans for this weekend. Veishea, Disney movie marathon, and a picnic... hopefully.
I got to hang with the guys in photography and watch them annoy the crap out of the nerds in the media center. The nerds started stalking them in the halls. It was hilarious!
That other guy and I had the same shirt on. XD
I got to wear my new Converse!
That one dude that I barely know talked to me about music again.
The weather was beautiful, so I sat outside for two hours, playing guitar. I've decided that it would be fun to teach myself how to play. So far, it's been insanely easy. Haha it might just be that I'm a fast learner. :)
Plus I made the decision to name all of my instruments. Drums, guitar, violin, mandolin... however, I have no idea what to name any of them. :/
Ah well.


I ♥ today.

Where to begin...

Well.
There are so very many places where I could begin.
But which is the best?
I suppose the common, everyday thoughts might be best expressed early,
so I guess I'll do that.

Friends
Honestly, I don't think my friends realize how much I actually need them. Without them, I would be nowhere. Probably sitting alone every night, with no one to talk to, no one to hang out with. They are my life, and I think the world of each and every one of them. All are amazing in their own quirky little ways. They are all smart, funny, beautiful, nice, and pretty much the best people I will ever meet in my entire life. I love you all, guys. I will always be there for you. Never forget that. ♥

Family
Okay, so most of the time, I love my family. I love how I can talk to my mom, and how she just knows at the exact time that I need a hug or when I need to talk. I love how my dad lets me turn my music up and actually encourages it, and how he lets his training in counseling shine through when I need it most. I love how my brother and I can talk and play video games and have fun together. Unfortunately, none of them have really realized that sometimes, I just need my space. I just need to be alone, or I just need to be with my friends. But still, they are pretty amazing, most of the time.

Love.. err... Like
When it comes to crushes or people that I admire, I am very shy about letting people know what I'm really feeling. I used to be such an open person, but over time, the criticism and the taunting have worn me down. I've gone from having no boundaries to being quiet and secluded with my thoughts. I wish that once again, I was my former self and could openly admit things to people without automatically fearing the worst.

School
I used to be the smart kid. Y'know, the one with straight A's, the one that knew everything, the one that everyone would go to for answers. Now, however, I happen to be one of the more stupid people in my grade. I have absolutely dreadful grades, and the answers to no one's questions. It kills me to see myself drawn into a pit of self-loathing because of this, but hey? What can you do?

So, I guess you know a little bit more about me.
If that's how it goes and all, that is.

Differentials

Have you ever noticed that
opinions, thoughts, feelings
all differ and change
depending on your mood?

I wish I was always in a good mood.
I was today.
And I felt optomistic for the first time in ages.
I loved it.
I'm going to be in a good mood more often. (:

Erm... Eighth grade crap XIII.

Actually, I had no part in writing this. My friend composed it, but I feel the need to post it on here because of its sheer awesomeness. I actually love it.

Mystery Poison

Come in the kitchen
I'll make you a sandwich
I've got my mystery
poison in hand, which
you will taste soon

Throw me that jar
and hand me the knife
you will be in for
the ride of your life
when you taste this

Because it's sticky
and it's tasty
and it's just for you
A mystery poison

Come now, dear
please don't be rude
just take a bite
of this magical food
it's terribly good

Because it's sticky
and it's tasty
and it's just for you
A mystery poison

Oh, come close
now listen, fast
I've got one thing
I need to ask...
do you like peanut butter?

Because it's sticky
and it's tasty
and it's just for you
A mystery poison